and I feel like my life is just a sad love song playing over and over and over again
But I clutch to that tune and it’s lyrical despair because the truth is if the song ever changed and it became happy,it would be a song I was singing without…………
You don’t do that to people
You don’t just walk back in to people lives
Disrupt everything and resurrect feelings
Then just walk away again
You just don’t fucking do that….
I’m not an insecure person and all the arguing ain’t because of low self-esteem or self confidence. The truth is I’m dead scared to lose you,it fucking hurts just thinking about it ..
He said,he wanted a next chance and he’s serious this time….
I said “if someone shot you and left you there to bleed to death without so much as a backward glance, would you put a gun in that same person hand and trust them not to shoot you again “
The stupid thing,I would give him that gun again in a heartbeat….in the blink of an eye.
As mighty as the lion is,if you test it on its ability to swim,it will fail……
God why do I keep doing this ?
Why? God I’m so stupid..I keep going back,taking him back again and again.
Nothing changes,he’s the same,does the same thing,shoves the knife in my heart the same way..Oh God why am i doing myself this ?
I deserve better ..I know this..I know I do but oh God I just can’t let go
To some, death isn’t the enemy. Life is a much less merciful opponent.
Do you know what it’s like to believe in nothing ?
Not in God,Not in man,Not in life
To be empty,to be alone,to be nothing.
There’s a kind of relief in tears
A kind of beauty in pain ….